tired eyes

this morning my alarm went off for an hour before I actually woke up and now it's 7:04 and I could honestly get in bed and go to sleep for the rest of the night. I'm not really sure why I'm so tired. Maybe it's cause my body is still trying to fight off this cold or because I didn't fall asleep until 10:30 and didn't really feel tired because I drank caffeine at 6:00. It's hit or miss how caffeine hits me but last night I could tell I wasn't ready for bed because of it.

I literally had 1 glass of Coke Zero with dinner yesterday and today I got 1 plastic cup with Diet Coke for lunch--I was so craving it today but once I tasted it, it wasn't that good. I'm trying to cut back on my Diet Coke intake, not that it is over the top but I could chill out a little. Normally when I get a pop at work it's a fountain pop and I fill it up or when I go to the vending machines, it's always the large one.

I never was a big pop drinker but since I've moved in with Brian I drink it a lot more. When I lived at home, I drank more water than anything. Dinner was served with milk or water and I think in school I just drank water but I honestly can't remember. Brian and I are going to try to buy 1 12 pack of pop a month, if we finish it before that then we are SOL. As hard as it might be I think I need to switch over to regular pop, if I know that there are calories in something, I end up drinking less. Totally a mind game but it seems to work. Lately, I've been trying to get products that aren't Reduced Fat or Fat Free unless it's dairy products, it's a really hard habit to break but I'm trying to take baby steps.

There's a girl at my work that has probably lost close to 15 lbs, my coworker had asked her how she did it and she said that she cut out sweets and junk food and is working out but not a crazy amount. My other coworkers told me that his friend cut out alcohol, junk food, fast food and maybe something else but he didn't work out and lost 60 lbs. It's hard to cut things like that, there is a lot of peer pressure from others directly and indirectly. I've been really good with not getting frozen yogurt at work. Even though people calm it's healthier, I've read that there are a lot of hidden things that are put into frozen yogurt and it's almost better to just get regular ice cream. A year ago I kept up with my work outs and eating healthy up until I start my job. Then once the holidays hit, I plateaued to a size I hadn't been in 2 or 3 years. It was heart wrenching and the worst part was I couldn't get it off.

Not that I tried to super but I remember trying to watch what I ate and work out but there was no budge on the scale. I remember weighing myself and telling Brian we needed to change the batteries because I thought something some wrong, nope it was just me. Since we went on our honeymoon 5 months after the wedding, I wasn't in my wedding shape anymore. I wish we could of gone somewhere so I could of seen myself in a bathing suit in my best shape. I was okay on our honeymoon, but I didn't feel super sexy and some of my clothes didn't fit me right.

I feel like my hips have grown the most, which I'd like to have more curves but I think it's more than that. I want to get it good shape again, just to feel better about myself an the way I look in clothes especially in my arms. I know I can do it, I've done it before, I just have to do it. I know I need to eat better because eating better and regularly working out will give me more motivation to do anything and not be tired at 7:00. I'm hoping when we move into our new place and I don't have to take Bear out to go potty for 20 minutes and I don't have to worry about people below us, I can fit in a quick work out in the morning.

GOAL: I'd like to be in good shape to start off the holiday season and then maintain or improve throughout next year. So I'm going to start off working out 3 mornings a week, twice a week during the day and then a good work out on Saturday and then going to Zumba on Sundays.